chasing after you.

i never think about you .. unless i have to. unless you force me to. but at times like these, i do. maybe it's a good thing. cos then i won't let you pass me by without me having done something, achieved something, created something ..

a friend of mine talked about you the other day. and maybe it triggered my thoughts. you come and go without anyone noticing .. not till you've passed us long enough for us to realise you will never come back. your hand ticks off every second we have with you. each tick sounding just the same as the other .. and yet each tick so unique on its own. because you say 'hello' and 'goodbye' at the same time.

you allow for so many things to be done .. and sometimes i wish i had more of you. sometimes i wish i didn't just sit around and let you walk pass me so many times in the past. sometimes i wish you stayed longer every night so that i wouldn't wake up feeling half-awake. maybe just because i have less of you nowadays i realise how important it is to make the fullest of it when you are around.

i don't know how much more of you i'll have . . because it's not in my hands. but right now.. like my friend.. i would want to make the best of what i can when you are around.