take one step at a time.

i can't believe how time has flown by so quickly. it's coming to the end of April already! we're almost reaching the halfway mark for 2009 and it feels as though new year wasn't too long ago. i'm gonna be off probation end of this month :) and i will try to keep my clean record of not having taken any days off so far hehe. work is good. lots of goals in place for me. which i'm supposed to answer to by 30 June 09. i hope i meet what's expected of me. God help me.

apart from that, weekends are what i look forward to alot :) alottt. i guess it's been that way ever since i started work last year. this year is a little different though. circle of friends seem to have grown smaller with the class of 08 graduating last yr.. but i think with the smaller circle, it's not so much just hi & bye. or eat and bye. we actually get up to doing interesting stuff like going canoeing @ the lake and having a picnic lunch. which makes me sad when i think how the circle will become even smaller next year. bleh. no emo now. no.

anyway, these past few weeks have been eventful. with birthdays, STOMP!, sydneytrip and canoeing :) which meant lots of $$ flying out of the pocket/bank. haha i wish i could go to daddy & mummy and say, i need to go (insert activity here), can I have some money please? or 'daddddd *HUGE smile* i use finish di, can I just have another $50 pleaseee?'. no matter how much i smile at the bank account i don't think it'll ka-ching any more than what i see. self control is what i need. the past few weeks i've spent a bomb. which i have to pay for now. i think working near the canberra centre is both a blessing and a curse. very much a curse when a shopaholic like me finds reason to buy every single thing that attracts my eye. a blessing cos i can shop haha go figure. so this week, my aim is to pay off all my previous bills (or try to anyway). i have to consciously tell myself NOT to walk into ANY shops that will tempt me. gorgeous clothes on the mannequins? no, not going in there. *steps closer*. no, not going in there. i've been successful today. it's only Monday omg. please God please let this week fly by so quickly. also because it's a long weekend this weekend :D woots. i think it puts a skip in everyone's step when you mention public holiday! for the working people, anyway :)

so. yeah. nothing too exciting. sister is pretty settled down. glad she's here :) very helpful arnd the house hehee but yeah, feels nice to have a family member around.

just a little preview of what we've been up to recently.

the twenty TWO year old :)

haha i decided the pictures were abit small. abittt small. so yeah :)

happy birthday dearie :) may you have an awesome awesome abundantly blessed year ahead. haha and like willeh says. may you find your soulmate lol.

the cake actually looks decent huh :) by the brother.

is she your type *wink wink

or is he. *not so wink

haha jk ah barns*

crabs for the bday girl's dinner. it tastes MUCH better than it looks

Sydney Trip

the day we went canoeing.

with my very unwilling paddler :)

guess who's back? *

hello hi.

it's been awhile ..
3 months awhile :)

but because mr i'm-no-longer-in-canbo-to-provide-us-gelatissimo requested .. i will resurrect frm the dead.

well, these 3months have been very exciting.challenging.new.hectic.fun :) firstly there was the whole moving into the new crib! of course EVERYONE knew about the no-hot-water-and-stove drama and how miserable it was out there .. with no one around. i hated this new place. just because it was so far away. and how walking 15minutes in the heat of summer was making my already dark skin even darkER. january was a good break.. having it off, i got to get the apartment sorted out. furniture and whatever else that was able to make this place - home. haha woots. i feel all so grown up. just that the bills for furnishing went to dad&mum :) it's like being able to decorate the place entirely free! anyhoos. this place is still a work in progress.. which chiahoo, i will post up FULL pics when i am satisfied with it :)

this is a small section which i'm quite happy with haha..

so anyway, after a month of holidayyy (which is so not enough, but i HAD to start work cos my bank balance was depleating).. i started with my new job! excited but also very scared. mainly because i had no idea what i was diving into. all i knew was that it was ACCOUNTING. and that was enough to make me freak out. but i trusted that if God opened the door, He had the best in mind. so i was gonna go in by faith. and truly God has been so good.. everyone's REALLY nice and i've been loving it so far. 2 months in already.. so quick. 1 more month and i'll be off probation *cross fingers* 180 degrees turn arnd frm my previous job.. which according to some inaccurate sources, i have been taking leave every other wk. please, so exaggerating haha so i would have broken my record since i haven't taken leave so far! :) but yeah, i love my work (so far) and the people. but i don't really look forward to my next rotation which is in tuggers. i went to that branch the other day for a meeting and there is NTH there at all! only a bunnings warehouse right next to it. what am i gonna do during lunch?? shop for hardware tools??! *sigh. but yeah, now all is good. i usually pack lunch to work.. and eat with my colleagues .. and with my remaining lunch time hop over to canbo centre for a walk walk. and every single time i walk pass gelatissimo. every single time. i wish i could just ask for the flavour i want.. and i get the biggest serving without paying a cent :)

but yeah, all's been very good so far. and i'm happy :) Lil J has entered into the canbo scene. making very good friends with my friends haha anyone wanna befriend my sister? lol* but it's good having her arnd. a piece of family. i get to hang out in bruce hall too! tho i feel a lil old everytime i walk down those hallways..so now, my weekly routine.. monday to friday is work! how exciting. with dance classes/church stuff slotted in here and there. and saturday mornings i wake up early to fetch roomie to work.. come home to freshen up and dilly dally.. then CHEAP heavy brunch at sw's work place :) budget friendly. then whatever else that comes to mind for the rest of the day.. i.e. shopping/sleeping!/housechores/doing nothing. sunday is just church and nth hectic. because the day after is work. again. so fast?? yeap.

there you go. no hoo-has. no dramas. and i'm not asking for any of those :) God has been great. thank You!

when the daddy mummy visited :)

me and mini me.

Skyfire 2009

ok. it's 1.17am now.

die la.

how to wake up tmrw.

Goodnight! :)

where are you christmas ?

where is the laughter ..

you used to bring me
why can't i hear music play?

my world is changing
i'm rearranging
does that mean christmas .. changes too?

safely home.

and i finally can sit down and update a little bit. just a little bit :)

it's been a busy past few weeks. with the new apartment needing all the basic necessities such as the washer, fridge etc. i had to make sure they were all purchased before i came home. andd without a car. it was difficult. not to mention.. buying the items. omg. shopping for clothes & all my nonsense, i've got experience la. you ask me to buy a fridge or a washing machine. god knows what i need to look for in it. the washer's RPM, the microwave.. inverter one or not? *faint. i don't knowww. but thank God i had some help and it all got settled well. now the new place is just a mess with lotsa boxes, luggages and bags of stuff everywhere. haha God help us unpack when we reach Canbo :) tho i must say it was really fun having my first time renting a car *hehee and driving to and fro frm the apartment to unilodge to transport all our junk. i think my dearest passengers enjoyed the privilege of having a car around too. for once we didn't have dinner in civic. happy's or food court type of options :p

after all the packing shifting buying stuff thingymajiggy. roomie & tan & everyone else had their graduation. and i was caught up in the excitement of it all :) snapping up pictures and learning heaps about flowers. haha and THEN. there was the whole packing to go home. unit G14 going back to its bareness and basics. it's been a year. so quick. too quick?

this whole transition from being a student to a working adult. adult. ee. the sound of it. so. not me. is weird. it seems even more real when my holidays are no longer 3 mnths but 2 wks. then it's weird when grandmama&ppl ask 'so how? no boyfriend yet?' when i used to hear 'ehh make sure you study finish first only you get a boyfriend'. yer. i so old di meh. nooo.

it's like everything has not really sunk deep enough yet. and i sort of like it that way. i think. living in denial? i don't know. but i still feel like a kid. not an adult with real responsibilities and issues. i guess i'll get used to it with time haha when the wrinkles start showing.

good grief.

my beloveds graduating.

the not yet

and the already have

and just today. my 21st belated birthday celebration @ home.





a reminder for me again.

i AM twenty one.

take a walk.

it's a full stop.
after a long enough paragraph.
not because i do not anymore.
but because i will not.

i chose to.
now i choose to.
it's not really an end of the road.
because where did the road start anyway?

and now i walk off the path.
a path walked on just a little too long.
not because i do not anymore.
but because i will not.

lunch time activity.

i woke up at 9.20 today. nine twenty. when work starts at 9. nine. because my phone was on silent since the valedictory thingy yesterday. not that i didn't know. stupid me woke up to the buzzing phone at 7 and turned it off and slept again. the next time i woke up i KNEW it was not early. and yeah, it wasn't. i was soooo tempted to just call in sick.

i guess i didn't since i'm now here having my lunch, instant noodles btw, and writing this because i don't feel like reading my book and i realised i haven't blogged in awhile. not that this post is of any significance anyway. but yeah.

side track. everyone's all graduating so soon. it's funny that i never felt uni was ENDING, in a way, because i still lived on campus, i still hung around all you guys, i still attended uni events, i still. but now that everyone's graduating, and i'm finally moving out of campus accommodation, it's as if i'm graduating for real alongside them. you all. it's so .. bittersweet.

eee. i emo for ppl's graduation.

but then again, i might just crash into my sister's uni events next year. mix with her 1990 friends.

talk about a kid who never wants to grow up.

thank You for these twenty one years.

dear God.

thank You for always loving me despite my despites.

thank You for being my rock & my salvation.

thank You for blessing me with a perfectly wonderful family who loves me so much.

thank You for blessing me with the bestest friends in the entire world.

thank You for giving me the opportunity to study overseas and gaining that piece of scroll.

thank You for the job I have now and the job I'm hopefully going to get.

thank You for a childhood filled with laughter and fond memories.

thank You for giving me the chance to experience both the bitter and sweet ..

thank You that during my lowest moments, You proved to be nearer than ever.

thank You for Your grace that so abounds in my life.

thank You for bringing me thus far.

thank You for these twenty one years, Lord.

and I pray that You'll continue to hold my hand through the many years to come.

my birthday breakie @ south kitchen, bruce

roomie's special treat for me

after dinner on the 13th

dinner outing + night of singstar & wii with my hotstuffs.

thank you everyone for celebrating my twentyfirst with me and for making it so special :) especially with the fateful date sandwiched in between your exam papers. love you guys heaps.

and to the other november babies.


happy belated birthday to all you beautiful people :) twenty one year olds and the twenty three year old .. may the years ahead be full of joy, laughter & love.

cheers to celebrating only the beginning.