take a walk.

it's a full stop.
after a long enough paragraph.
not because i do not anymore.
but because i will not.

i chose to.
now i choose to.
it's not really an end of the road.
because where did the road start anyway?

and now i walk off the path.
a path walked on just a little too long.
not because i do not anymore.
but because i will not.

lunch time activity.

i woke up at 9.20 today. nine twenty. when work starts at 9. nine. because my phone was on silent since the valedictory thingy yesterday. not that i didn't know. stupid me woke up to the buzzing phone at 7 and turned it off and slept again. the next time i woke up i KNEW it was not early. and yeah, it wasn't. i was soooo tempted to just call in sick.

i guess i didn't since i'm now here having my lunch, instant noodles btw, and writing this because i don't feel like reading my book and i realised i haven't blogged in awhile. not that this post is of any significance anyway. but yeah.

side track. everyone's all graduating so soon. it's funny that i never felt uni was ENDING, in a way, because i still lived on campus, i still hung around all you guys, i still attended uni events, i still. but now that everyone's graduating, and i'm finally moving out of campus accommodation, it's as if i'm graduating for real alongside them. you all. it's so .. bittersweet.

eee. i emo for ppl's graduation.

but then again, i might just crash into my sister's uni events next year. mix with her 1990 friends.

talk about a kid who never wants to grow up.

chasing after you.

i never think about you .. unless i have to. unless you force me to. but at times like these, i do. maybe it's a good thing. cos then i won't let you pass me by without me having done something, achieved something, created something ..

a friend of mine talked about you the other day. and maybe it triggered my thoughts. you come and go without anyone noticing .. not till you've passed us long enough for us to realise you will never come back. your hand ticks off every second we have with you. each tick sounding just the same as the other .. and yet each tick so unique on its own. because you say 'hello' and 'goodbye' at the same time.

you allow for so many things to be done .. and sometimes i wish i had more of you. sometimes i wish i didn't just sit around and let you walk pass me so many times in the past. sometimes i wish you stayed longer every night so that i wouldn't wake up feeling half-awake. maybe just because i have less of you nowadays i realise how important it is to make the fullest of it when you are around.

i don't know how much more of you i'll have . . because it's not in my hands. but right now.. like my friend.. i would want to make the best of what i can when you are around.